Madonna wants the world to know the father of her child may not be her husband, but he's still a big part of her life.

"I was in love with him," Madonna says in the April 11 TV Guide. "A lot of people think I walked out on the street and looked at him and said, `You're going to be my sperm donor.' "Madonna had a daughter, Lourdes, with Carlos Leon, a personal trainer she met in New York.

"I had a relationship with him. I still have a relationship with him," Madonna said. "We are really good friends. . . . The last thing I want my daughter to do is grow up without a father. I grew up without a parent."