Former high school official Pamela Smart, in her first interview from the prison cell where she has been sentenced to spend the rest of her life, said she never believed she would be convicted of seducing a teenager into killing her husband.
"I thought there were two options: I would be found not guilty or there would be a hung jury," Smart, 23, told The Boston Globe in an interview published Saturday."I never conceived this would become a reality."
Smart, a former media director at Winnacunnet High School in Hampton, was convicted March 22 of orchestrating the murder of her husband. Three teens, one of whom was Smart's lover, have confessed to carrying out the crime last May 1. They said they killed Gregory Smart, a 24-year-old insurance salesman, at his wife's urging.
Prosecutors said Pamela Smart wanted her husband out of the way so she could pursue her affair with the confessed triggerman, William Flynn, who was 16 at the time of the slaying. They said Smart decided to have her husband killed because she feared she would lose her condominium and her dog, Haley, in a divorce.
Her cool demeanor during the sensational trial won her the nickname "The Ice Maiden." But Smart said if she had wept during the trial, her detractors still would have found fault with her.
"They would have said I cried crocodile tears, so either way I couldn't have won," she said. "Contrary to my ice princess image, I do have a heart."
Smart, whose lawyers are planning an appeal, has maintained her innocence and told the Globe she was the victim of intense media publicity that painted her as a calculating villainess.
"I feel like a victim of this brutal media blitz," Smart said in an interview from the New Hampshire State Prison in Goffstown.
"I just want every person in America who truly believes in their heart that I got a fair trial to pretend for just one second that they were in my shoes and my circumstances, then ask themselves if they still think it was fair," Smart said.
She said she is still in "a state of shock" over the verdict and has even contemplated suicide but does not want to give her enemies "the victory of killing myself."
Smart said Judge Douglas Gray's decision not to sequester the Rockingham County Superior Court jury until after deliberations began prevented her from getting a fair trial.