When I am the least focused on my tasks, it is mostly due to avoidance tendency
that I have in myself. I also think I have undiagnosed adhd, because if I
don't actively manage my focus, I don't do it well. That rigor just
isn't my nature. I could trace it back to a workaholic father
who was absent most of my childhood, thus causing my mother no end of reasons to
complain about him... leading to a poor self-image in myself. Or maybe I just
used that as an excuse, but whatever the case, it doesn't do me much good
other than to know that it's a tendency that I have to actively combat.
Some folks fight against drug addiction, I fight against distraction
addiction.I als find difficulty focusing on tasks that I believe are
pointless, or won't really ever have any lasting consequence on a project.
The idea of busywork for the sake of busywork really leaves me cold. If the end
sum of my labors is nil (Perceived by me, reinforced by management), then I can
spend that time much better doing my thing, rather than their thing.
Otherwise busy and productive people run into this all the time. If you
don't schedule down-time, your mind will guilt/force it through spin-down
which you see as laziness. You need to play more, and the tendency to avoid
through express "laziness" will decrease. Just give yourself a firm
limit of how long it can last and you'll be fine. Count on it.
I think I have those thoughts when the lottery gets over $100 million. I would
consider myself a workaholic or at least a busyaholic. I don't necessarily
have to work at "work" but I can't sit still. I would never be
happy lazying about, I would go absolutely crazy. I could certainly enjoy the
big screen TV and pithy comments job, but eventually I would have to find
something to do that engaged my mind and my hands.I tell my wife I know
that when I "win" the lottery I could keep busy enough fishing but know
that at some point that I would have to be doing something else too, I will
never admit that to her though.
I feel it is totally OK to be lazy sometimes and even necessary. It's
important for me to have a little down-time once a week or so to recharge. There
is nothing better than a Sunday afternoon nap. When I get up I can then focus on
the week ahead, plan out my schedule, and what I'm going to need to do to
accomplish the tasks I have ahead of me.