Until recently, I didn't understand the anguish that gay LDS church members
experience when they desire to remain active in the church. I think that LDS
parents of gay children need to encourage their gay children to leave the
church, find a loving partner, and understand that God loves all of his spirit
children equally, EVEN though the church does not.
Stuart was an old co-worker. On occasions since his unfortunate death, I think
of him, of his struggles which I may never fully understand as I an neither
religious nor gay. Like this Christmas night, I search Stuart's name and find
these wonderful, powerful stories of silence and struggle. Why is it that an
institution that teaches love and acceptance can act so horribly towards those
that are gay? Am I missing something? Hyprocacy, absolute example I see.Anyways, my thoughts once again goes to my old friend Stuart and to his
family. Such a shame what happened, as Stuart was such a stand up guy - he was
honest, considerate, kind, hard working, an absolute blast to be around. No
reason justifies any suffering that leads to the death of a human being, a human
being that God created. Is God imperfect???
RE: Anthony BrownPlease don't kill yourself. You are loved. Your
family loves you, I love you, & God loves you. While dealing with my homosexual
attraction, I've learned that I can't hate myself. I've had to learn to love
myself, and stop viewing myself as evil. I don't know the answers, but there is
always a better path to take. Talk to people close to you about your struggles.
Seek for love & acceptance, and let them know that you need that from them. If
they try to give uninformed advice, kindly let them know that you've heard it
all before, and that's not what you need from them.
Ive been in reparative therapy, Ive prayed, fasted, attended temple and church
meetings and done my best to serve others. This has not gone away. So much money
and time has been spent in trying to get this fixed. I hate going to church
sometimes because of the comments that I hear. "kill the gays, lets burn them"
My heart is broken I cry out to God and there is no answer there is no healing.
I feel that in time I too will end up taking the same course as many young
latter day saint men do, and just shaking off the chains of mortality, but I
personally dont see any other way. Years later and thousands and thousands of
dollars later spent in therapy, and hours spent on my knees and nothing. I feel
our leader although dear and sweet and loving as they are all to often sweep
this issue under the carpet. I don't mean to sound mean or spiteful. I just know
from experience that all to often I am told to just keep my self chaste and be
quite about the whole thing. Prehaps its time I bought a gun too.
I am now in my 55 year and have struggled with same gender attraction all my
life. I have had many ups and downs. I am a returned missionary and attended
BYU. I live in California and have read this book multiple times as I struggle
to remain faithful. Still living in quiet desperation.
This is a great article and I can feel the pain of those who are convinced that
there is something higher for them than participating in homosexual activities.
Of course the same goes for those who are not homosexual and understand that
there is something greater for them than participating in hetrosexual activities
before marriage just because society says it is completely natureal and
acceptable. I admire the strength of those who continue to live
virtuous lives regardless of the challenges that they face. Thanks
for sharing the inner most feelings of your heart.My heart goes out
to the parents who's son decided to end his own life.