An infertility journey of faith, trust, timing

By Ashley Stallings

For the Deseret News

Published: Tuesday, April 16 2013 5:00 a.m. MDT

The next nine months were like walking on egg shells. It was hard to get overly excited; it almost seemed too good to be true, and we didn't want to get our hopes up until the baby was safe and sound in our arms. We had experienced that heartbreak once before.

On Jan. 10, 2008, our little miracle man was born. Seeing his perfect little face made all the pain of the last four years wash away. I knew God had a bigger plan for us — a more perfect plan for us than we could have ever planned ourselves.

Those four years brought, along with the heartbreak, so many things. Looking back I would never have been able to change and may have never become who I am today without this trial. My husband and I learned to conquer trials together, learned that "we can do hard things." I learned to look at the trials of others with more empathy and to be more understanding.

I know I am a better mother today because of the things I went through. I pray every night to never forget those feelings of wanting to be a mother so badly, and that I may always remember the lessons infertility has taught me.

Ashley Stallings is a mother of two and a lifestyle and fashion blogger at She is also co-founder of The Hudson Foundation,a non profit that helps couples struggling with infertility. Her email is

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