Key witness in FLDS trials spoke out 'for those who have no voice'

Former sister wife details 'constant state of fear' at FLDS ranch

Published: Wednesday, April 11 2012 10:46 p.m. MDT

But those trials came with their own trials for Musser. The Texas attorney general had obtained the use of a 7,000-acre ranch and hunting lodge to provide security for witnesses. In those confines, the wait for the trials to begin seemed endless, and her anger and frustration built up.

"I was a heaping pile of (ticked) off," she said.

One day she slipped past the security, found a big rock and began to cry and cry, "shedding tears like acid" that burned her face.

"Why did I have to be the one to hold these men accountable?" she asked. Her tears all cried out, an awe and a hush, a sense of wonder and peace settled over her, and she said she clearly heard a voice speaking to her.

"Do not ask, 'Why me?'" the voice said. "Instead ask, 'Show me.'"

She understood she had to go forward and it would work out.

"I was not there for me," Musser said of the trials. "I was speaking for other people."

She testified for those she loved who were still in the faith, many who were attending the trial, "looking at me as if I were Satan's child."

"I could speak truth from a place where I could recognize my humanity and my divinity," Musser said. "It was never about the convictions. I was there to be a voice to someone who had no voice."

In a hushed tone, Musser challenged the audience, "I invite you to ask that difficult question, to ask 'show me.' ... You will become open to possibilities. ... The tools will be placed in your path.

"What have you been telling yourself that you cannot do and be?"

E-mail: lbrubaker@desnews.com

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