Her teenage stepbrother continued his abuse, then as she got older, invited other teenage neighbor boys to watch her in other sexually inappropriate behaviors with her other siblings.

As is often the case as child victims grow to be adults, Julie faced bumps with her spouse and family as she's tried to confront the abuse.

"I think the worst part is feeling like I've had a problem."

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As she looks back at those first introductions to abuse, Julie stays away from specific details. She remembers everything, but random sidenotes of the abuse are gnawing at her today — like the fact that her 7-year-old brother was watching ... and that her family kept the sleeping bag where the abuse first occurred.

She says she is done being mad at her mom, who knew about at least one incident of abuse. The teenage boy actually went to juvenile sex offender treatment after Julie's parents reported this incident to officials. But the two children continued to live together and were often unsupervised.

Julie says she's been so angry at her parents at times. "Why didn't you take me out of the house?" She's wondered of her mother. "Why didn't you take him out of the house?"

At Christmastime last year, Julie says she lost it. Her husband was away, and she was staying at her parents' home. The stepbrother who'd abused her wanted to come to stay at the house, too.

"I told my dad that was fine, but that my baby and I wouldn't be there," Julie said.

Her dad told her to get over it.

A family drama ensued that took some time to work out. The young man never came over. Julie stood her ground. Her father threatened suicide over it. But in the end, her father apologized for everything, which is really what Julie says she wanted.

"I do think it's something I need to deal with," she said. "I just need to get over it. But I honestly don't see how therapy is going to help."

Gordon, of the Office of Crime Victim Reparations, might disagree. "Left unchecked, this can have really long-term consequences."

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Many say the state is failing victims of sexual abuse.

"I think the biggest issue is that we are too 'offender focused' in our approach to sexual violence," said Heather Stringfellow, director of the Rape Recovery Center and former detective in the Salt Lake Police Department's sex crimes division.