As the summer cools to autumn and I send my oldest daughter off to kindergarten each day, I'm reminded that the only constant is change. The time has gone quickly since she was kicking me (almost in rhythm) in utero as I reviewed concerts, and since then, she has been joined by two other siblings.

It's hard to take time to reflect when time is at such a premium in my life. And yet I have to pause — if only briefly — to say goodbye, because the season of my life spent working at the Deseret Morning News as a music critic is drawing to a close.

It's been a perfect job. Actually getting paid to go hear world-class artists has been a dream come true. I feel passionately about the arts, and I've been given a platform to support (and sometimes complain about) them.

Interviewing and talking with the leading musicians of our day is stimulating and interesting. The hours have been flexible, and most of them have been from home.

And the people I have worked with — particularly Scott Iwasaki — have been incredible.

I still occasionally pinch myself and ask, "Am I crazy for quitting?" But then the rest of my life gets busy, and I think, "I'll go crazy if I don't."

I think it's this last baby that has tipped the balance. He's a great baby, but when my "day" continues through the night and full force into the next day — with never a chance to recharge — it's a recipe for burnout.

My wonderful mother-in-law (no, that wasn't a typo) has been driving down from Ogden every Monday to watch the kids while I work. If I could arrange for, prepare for and conduct interviews exclusively on Monday, life would be great.

But the problem comes on Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and Friday, when everybody returns the calls (or e-mails) I made on Monday. No matter how quiet it is when I answer the phone, that's ALWAYS the time one child decides to pinch the other — resulting in a loud wail and a rush on Mommy, which prompts the baby to cry. Meanwhile, I'm trying to act "professional" on the phone.

At night, instead of cleaning the house, hanging out with my husband or completing any number of unfinished projects after the kids go to bed, that's usually my time to catch-up on unfinished articles and unanswered e-mails (when I'm not out reviewing a concert).

All that other stuff gets pushed to the next day, where it gets squeezed into an already overstuffed schedule. And if I reviewed a concert, that means it was a late night (plus the baby got off schedule and woke up more than usual), so I have to keep it all up while sleep-deprived.